Songwriting

Breaking a Sweat

The air conditioner is in. Three of them in fact. One for each room of our rooms, excepting the bathroom. To me this speaks of something to do with comfort and discomfort. What am I willing to withstand?  

As a kid, we never had air conditioners. I remember having a conversation with an older friend on a hot day about the heat of summers past. Of hotter days he remembered from before I was around.  An earnest version of “in my day we walked to school uphill both ways;” from a nine year old to five year old.  

You’ve gathered that I’m now caught in the currents of a judgment that will arrive at something close to toughen up, you don’t need all this stuff. It’s an easy judgment to pass on myself. There’s a voice in my head both willing to do the judging and another that is will to shoulder the judgment. That’s an odd dynamic isn’t it?  

But voice two isn’t really as subservient as I’d like to imagine either. He’s typing away with the feigned equanimity of a self-help influencer and hoping to balance things out so it’s fine to use the AC, or at least see what happens if the air conditioner is used.  (It’s not going to be turned off).     

What makes this hard to bear is this is all sort of a metaphor. A man, George Floyd, died in Minneapolis yesterday after being arrested by a group of policemen. In video one officer knelt on George’s neck. George protested he couldn’t breathe. The officer remained unmoved for five minutes.  George fell unconscious and died.      

On the one hand, perhaps there’s nothing wrong with enjoying the comfort wrought by the air conditioning, my skin color. On the other, something is deeply wrong. I am sitting here in the comfort of my apartment not breaking a sweat. And still, my self-judgment does nothing for me or for anyone else except perhaps to announce “I’m aware!”

A friend I admire was out in the streets of Minneapolis last night. An action. She mentioned the writing of Resmaa Menakem in a post today, another action. Another person mentioned he’s offering a free course right now. Anyone could take his course, or read a book of his and that would be an action. 

Another thing a person can always do is ask; “What can I do?”  “How can I help?” These are questions that signal the willingness to take action. Before long who knows, a person might find themselves out in the real world, no air conditioning to be found, doing work; breaking a sweat.

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Songwriting

The Roux of Songwriting

I spent last night on the couch absorbed in news, but did pause for an hour or so to put together a lovely lemon butter parmesan sauce for the gnocchi about to expire in the fridge. I was thinking to make a something like a beurre blanc for the gnocchi—the beurre blanc recipe I found called for two sticks of butter which is a lot, even for me. I improvised instead. Starting a little roux with some butter and cornstarch in a pan.

Up until about a year ago, I’d never made a roux. Just a bit of butter and starch blended together at medium heat. Mix it until it’s a lively, golden play dough bubbling away at the bottom of your pan, then add liquid until it’s a thick happy sauce. Every time I’m scared I’ll mess it up somehow. I’m not sure it’s messable. If it starts browning and overcooking you can just call it a “chocolate roux” and move on with life.

While the roux was still primordial ooze in the pan I added finely diiced onion and later a bit of garlic to it. No white wine in the house, but plenty of dry vermouth. I added that as a liquid, stirred, (there was near constant stirring), and watched it become a nice thick gravy in the bottom of the pan.

Meanwhile, I’d chopped some broccoli and tossed it in a dry pan at med-hi heat (midway between the 7 and 8 on the dial of my electric coil stove) letting it char ever so gently. That came off and went in a bowl on the side, broccoli tends to get mushy unless it’s added last to a sauce. I hate mushy broccoli.

Mushy-rooms on the other hand are delicious. We had a few Creminis in the the fridge. I chopped them. Butter goes in the pan, mushrooms go in the pan, five or so minutes later, nice sautéed mushrooms. 

I was tending to the sauce in pan one, stirring away and adding a bit of water here and there so it wouldn’t get to dry. I’d started dusting it with parmesan at some point, (and stirring), the same way I’d make a Alfredo sauce, but added more water so the whole thing was a little looser, closer to the consistency of the buerre blanc I was thinking of. A little salt for seasoning. A little lemon juice for acid and brightness.

At this point I’d combined the broccoli with the mushy-rooms and tossed the gnocchi in with them. That was a mistake. It was another path to mushy broccoli. I quickly found some tongs and separated the gnocchi from the vegetables. Then carried on following the gnocchi directions.

Next veggies went into the lemony, parmesan-y primordial ooze, (more stirring). The gnocchi got divided between two plates. The lemon-parmesan sauce with mushyrooms and yummy broccoli when over the gnocchi. Dinner was served. There was one last “Fin du Monde,” (a Belgian style tripel) hiding in the back of the fridge which complimented the sauce just so.

There’s a corollary here to songwriting, (other crafts as well), that goes something like this. A few years ago, I made a roux for the first time. Another two years or so ago I’d made alfredo (the real way, which means no cream) for the first time. I knew corn starch or flour is often used to thicken a sauce. The principles behind all three is basically the same, combining fat, starch and liquid. I had just enough knowledge of all three things to know that what I envisioned “should” work, but had never executed the trick. This is inspiration. This is flow.

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Songwriting

The Advice We Give Others

We always give other people the best advice which we’re ignoring ourselves. Last night my friend, Charlotte, asked for feedback on her website.  

Here’s what I said: 

I concur with everyone who’s asked what the main action you want someone to take is. (I’d argue that action should be to sign up for a mailing list; mailing list sign-up = potential “True Fan”).

I continued: 

Whatever you choose to do, remember all the Seth Godin lessons of the past 100 days. The group of fans you correspond with regularly isn’t your email list, they are potential true fans. You aren’t asking them to sign up for a newsletter, you’re inviting them into a tribe you’re creating which “paints a world . . . unified through a love of music, culture and community.” Aspire to create something idiosyncratic. Aspire to create something identifiably yours. Then ship it (when it’s ready, but ship it).

All the while thinking back on “TImmyR.com” and saying to myself, “Self, you should be getting on top of this too.”  

So here’s a reminder; when you offer someone else great advice remember you’re may also be offering to yourself.  

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Songwriting, The Muse, Writing

Hubbub in the Living World

Silence isn’t really a part of the living world. On a “quiet” morning when I walk in the woods there’s quite the hubbub going. Finches, doves, frogs, sparrows, muskrats, squirrels. They all furrow and murmur. That’s before accounting what other humans, canines and I add to the ruckus.  

If a person hears nothing it’s either because they happen to be a predator afoot in the world and all god’s creatures have tensed to escape the notice of hungry eyes and ears that. Or, it’s because that person has fortified themselves in some a manmade thing, (edifice or transport), that shutters out the sounds of the living world. That old cliché of where someone says; “It’s silent, too silent,” reflects a truth; out in nature silence is evidence of a world on edge.  

I suspect the same holds true in our big, busy simian brains. Silence, the cessation of thoughts, isn’t an achievable constant in the wilds of our minds. We might scan our minds with our predator’s eyes and scare the fauna of our mind into petrification for a moment or two.  But soon enough they’re back to the business at hand.   

As a writer this is good news. All you have to do to write is be attentive and listen. Give your mind a moment and it will babble like a brook or tweet like a bird.  

Go ahead and join the rest of nature. Make some noise.   

Every Saturday I post a prompt in “The Fearless Songwriter” group on Facebook. There’s a great little community of songwriters growing over there. Join in. (The best way to keep track of all I do is to sign up for my mailing list).

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Songwriting

The Creative’s Workshop

The first thing I discovered after joining “The Creative’s Workshop” is I was expected to post something—everyday—for 100 days. Seth, the workshops creator calls this “The Dailies.”  The Dailies are sort of like Morning Pages in the Artist’s Way, except Morning Pages are private. This would was to be public, (at least public to the group). I hadn’t signed up for that. I didn’t know what I’d signed up for. I liked the workshop’s name and I liked Seth’s work.   

The Daily commitment is ten minutes. Spend ten minutes creating something and post it. This is an example of a low bar and a head fake. The low bar?  Even on a hard day, most people can find 10 minutes in which to post something. (A post about how it was a hard day would count if you decided it did). The head fake? Once most people sit down to start a daily more than ten minutes will be spent, I sure did.   

100 days after joining, this was the tally of things in my dailies:   

Songs Written: 31 (Song Co-written: 4)

Instrumentals started: 1

Explanations of my songwriting process: 3

Blogs blogged: 23

BEAD One Sheets: 22

BEAD Videos: 12

Song Videos: 3

Theory Worksheets Created: 2

Days spent as a hair care professional: 1

Old poems posted: 5

New poems posted: 5

Things submitted for approval: 2

Sketched posted: 4

Coaching Clients Recruited: 2

Weekly Songwriting Groups held: 5

Fearless Songwriting Weeks: 2

Songwriting Prompts Created: 19

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Songwriting

The Edge of the Unknown

The unknown always comes with an edge. Today I finished The Creative’s Workshop. When I started the workshop, it was the unknown.  

An introductory instruction was to tag strangers in our posts. Everyone was a stranger. It felt scary. The administrators insisted tagging people was generous and soon tagging people was as natural as signing onto Facebook when I’m bored. 

Now that the workshop is complete and its end is the edge of the unknown. What’s next? If I don’t post on the website, who am I? That edge will be dull soon too, and some other unknown will present itself.   

It’s hard to dampen my fear of the pulse of the unknown. Fear is taken seriously when it arises with good reason. As I’m moving out of the workshop, I aspire to recognize the false fear of the creative edge more quickly, and move forward with it.  

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Songwriting

Asking

In the movie “Spirited Away,” there is a hungry ghost called No Face. It offers of coins and eats those who partake. It’s not really explained why he eats the partakers. 

He starts as wraith, hardly malevolent; he seems to pang for attention, not food. The character who won’t take what he offers is Chihiro, the protagonist. She asks what he wants. He can’t seem to say. It seems his mood fouls only after she declines the coin he offers.  

Offering and asking is sometimes like that. Offering is easier than asking. It requires humility and vulnerability. An asker cedes an amount of control and safety. Yet asking is as important as offering. An eye level relationship requires asking and offering, give and take.  

I’ve just finished 100 days of shipping which more offering than asking. My aspiration for the next hundred is to embrace the vulnerability of asking. I’m not much sure what it will look like, but today my first ask is, would you like to sign up for my email list? I promise I’ll not to eat you, (or anyone else), if you decline.  

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