I’ve been stuck a lot lately with the thought; “I should be writing everyday.”
What I tend to do, is procrastinate everyday. I like to ride the bus to Kickstand Café with the intention of writing and then manufacture flashcards in Greek for two and half hours. Then, if I have the day off, I might seek comfort in a lunch of steak tips, french fries and a cold Sam Summer Ale. A nap is likely to follow.
This may start to come across as self-denigration or flagellation, but it’s also not how writing gets done. Writing gets done by looking at our fears and distortions of reality and finding ways to converse with them. Also, by sitting down and writing. Writers write after all. So let’s work with the thought, “I should be writing every day.”
The gold standard of writing seems to be rolling out of bed into a chair at a writer’s desk where I’ll spend somewhere between the ten minutes and ten hours scrawling away. All the famous writing teachers advocate some form of this from Natalie Goldberg to Julia Cameron to Steven Pressfield. My fear is if I don’t write everyday, I won’t be a writer, I’ll be a phony and a fake.
Here, Dr. David Burns, podcaster and author of the book “Feeling Good” saves the day for me, (or more accurately, saves some days for me). David is one of the chief exponents of CBT, Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. I’ve found his tools to be immensely helpful, even more helpful than a one beer buzz and belly full of steak tips and french fries.
One tool begins when I note what distressful thoughts I have. I Actually write them down. I read through my thoughts and find the fears and distortions in them, searching out ways they don’t portray reality accurately. David has a list of ten common ways our thoughts may distort reality which is helpful here. The distortions have names like overgeneralization, all or nothing thinking, shoulds, mind reading or fortune telling.
Sometimes merely discovering a thought’s distortion is enough to release me from its grip. In the case of the thought, “I should be writing everyday,” I can see the nasty word “should” is at least part of the thought distortion that’s got me down–rephrasing it as “It would be preferable if I wrote everyday,” may be enough to help me feel a bit better.
But there’s a paradoxical question that’s even better, basically the Brazilian Jujitsu of CBT:
“What about this thought shows how you I awesome and admirable as a human being?”
This question can make a mind go numb. It’s been helpful to hear David work on his podcast with other people to get some ideas. It can also help to take a different angle like; “What makes me want to write everyday?” That’s easier to answer:
1. I’d like my writing to eventually earn some money for me or even help support a career.
2. I want to share things I find useful and helpful with people.
3. I believe talking about my own vulnerabilities and where I can find strength in those vulnerabilities might help others find strengths hidden in their vulnerabilities.
So what do those three thoughts reflect about me that’s awesome and/or admirable:
1. “I’d like my writing to eventually earn me money or even help support a career.” This shows hope, ambition, and drive. Is hope ambition and drive awesome and/or admirable? Yes!
2. “I want to share things I find useful and helpful with people.” This shows care and concern and a desire to help others out. Is wanting to help others out awesome and/or admirable? Yes!.
3. “I believe talking about my own vulnerabilities and how I can find strength in those vulnerabilities might help others find strengths hidden in their vulnerabilities.” This shows openness, honesty, even humility paired again with the above desire to help others out. Are these things that are awesome and admirable? Yes!
Hidden in a thought I was beating myself up with are a swath of thoughts and motivations that are useful and admirable. Six months ago, before I’d learned these techniques for David Burns, I couldn’t have done it uncovered the good in these thoughts alone. There are other fears and distortions that keep me from writing obviously. Things like; “What I write won’t be any good,” and “No one wants to read what I write,” are in the top ten of my brain’s playlist. But these are also distortions that can be worked with in similar ways.
If you’ve interested in check out more of Dr. David Burns, his Podcast is here and his website is here. Listening or reading may help you start to see how you could work with, and transform your own fears and distortions.
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